Hey so. I want to give everyone a head’s up about future updates, while I’m in a steady headspace and can articulate this.
My dog’s health is declining at an alarming rate. I don’t know how much time he has left, but I’m guessing it isn’t long. We take things day-to-day, but the days have gotten bleaker and bleaker. I am not coping well with it now, and I can’t imagine that I’ll be coping well when the time finally comes. And it’s coming soon.
I’m not looking for sympathy, because holy shit I’ve broken down about this enough. Like how the fuck does the human body produce so much tears and mucus? The fact that I’m opening up about it at all is some kind of feat, the whole “accepting what’s to come”. It sucks. The end.
Anyway, which brings us to Interpersonal Chemistry.
Here’s the deal: I’m behind on revisions again because June has taken so much out of me as I emotionally prepare myself (spoiler alert: haven’t been doing a great job with that lol) (mostly I’ve been depressed and lethargic). And the final three chapters are huge, especially chapter 26 (home stretch, holy SHIT, THIS SHOULD BE MORE EXCITING. WHY IS LIFE LIKE THIS??? AUGH!!!).
I’ve made a plan: After 25.7 is posted on Saturday, July 1st, there will be a full two week hiatus (so 26.1 will be posted on July 15th). My goal was/is to use July’s Camp NaNoWriMo to finish up the remainder of IC’s revisions, but I’m going to be starting today because I can’t really make future plans atm. I’m also working on scheduling posts at this very moment so that if/when things go down here, I don’t have to worry about getting stuff up.
Now, I don’t think I’ll have the bandwidth to announce when, well, y’know. But if I don’t immediately respond to comments, that might be the most solid indicator. You may wanna subscribe to the emails so that you know when the updates are live, because I probably won’t be making too many social media posts to announce them.
That being said, don’t be afraid to leave comments even if I’m sort of absent (BUT ALSO YOU ARE ALSO NOT OBLIGATED TO, YOU OWE ME NOTHING! I GET BEING SHY, IT’S OK, THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE <333. But if you’re a reader that normally comments, don’t feel like you have to stop!!!). I will absolutely read them, even as I’m grieving. Literally one of the only things keeping me afloat is when you guys say nice things about my work. I’m not even kidding, lately it’s been the difference between a bad day and a good day (not quite as drastic as death and life, but emotionally it feels like that).
Right now, IC is one of the very few things that helps me feel normal and stable. And all of you are a part of that, and have helped immensely even if you aren’t aware. That’s why I’m not putting it on hiatus (ALSO IT’S SO CLOSE TO BEING DONE).
Thank you so much for understanding.
All of my love,
Jack
take your time! your work is worth waiting for, queer-wrestling-rome wasn’t built in a day ????
ahhh thank you sweetheart <333
I really do wanna get this posted with minimal interruption (IT'S LIKE. IT'S SO CLOSE, WALSHIE. GOD THE TIMING. Doesn't my dog know that he's supposed to live forever what the fuck???), get as much done so that if/when I go dark it's relatively seamless, so that when I come back I can be all "lol guys hey I totally didn't have A Crisis don't worry about it :)))". but I know that ambition vs reality are sometimes two totally different things.
Hang in there, take your time and spend it in what’s more important right now.
Thank you <333